Do you ever feel like no matter how much good you try to put out there in the world, there is a line a mile long of people waiting to tear you down? Adoption, like life, is a rollercoaster of emotions. No matter what the intentions behind your positive actions, there will be people ready to throw your human failings in your face. They will take the good and chew it up and mangle it and spit it back out as something ugly and self serving. The goal is to stay focused. The goal is to not let your heart become bitter and guarded. The goal is keep putting the good out there and not focus on the negativity. The negativity will destroy you. I am repeating Psalms 51 like a mantra today. "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit in me."
Sometimes, it is so easy to let yourself be brought down. You have to make a concious choice to keep plugging away, to keep trudging through, to keep attempting to make a difference, despite the neigh-sayers. One must realize that more often than not, the people who try to rip your heart to shreds, are the people who need your love the most.
"If God is for you, who can be against you." Romans 8:31
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